Friday, July 26, 2013

Photography Abroad

I've been overseas for two and a half months and didn't think I would be commisioned for photography. But I was! Thanks to my dear family friends in Stuttgart they asked me to do some photos of their 20 and 11 year old daughters in a medieval walled town, with traditional dress.

It was a wonderful couple of hours running around the city capturing architecture blended with the dresses and the love I feel for the people I was capturing.

Here are some shots, enjoy!

~Rebecca
By the way the dresses are called DIRNDLS (said dindle)















Wednesday, July 24, 2013

At the end of the day I'm only 22

That's it. I'm only 22.

Apparently, according to an online calculator my life expectancy is 92.

Meaning I have 70 years left, if I take care of myself. Which I try to do. I don't eat red meat or poultry. I don't smoke. I don't do drugs. I exercise a few times a week and need to step it up. I eat pretty healthy, no gluten or soy, limited amounts of dairy, I do need to eat less carbs though. I'm going to school, I have a lot of contact with friends/family.

So in statistical things I have a long life expectancy.

And I'm only 22.

Here are things I have done by 22...

-Graduated high school
-Attending university with a 3.0 GPA and getting two degrees, history and journalism
-Funded 2.5 month trip to Europe by myself at 19
-Took second trip to Europe at 22 for 2.5 months (Study Abroad)
-Visited a good chunk of places on my bucket list
-Lived by myself for a year
-Worked at two museums, one I had dreamed of working at since I was a little kid
-Bought half a NEW car with boyfriend
-Wrote a book (which I ended up hating and I am rewriting )
-I work at a really cool independant book store, as a weekend manager (another dream job)
-Made a long list of costumes for Halloween and other events
-I've acted in a lot of plays
-I've been to a beer fest in Germany
-I've been lucky to fall deeply in love with someone that loves me back
-Competed in horse shows
-Competed in singing competitions
-Worked on making myself a stronger, more loving and forgiving person through therapy and knowledge
-Battled demons from my past in the form of PTSD
-I'm lucky enough to help raise a really sweet 6 year old
-I've seen almost all of my favorite bands perform live (except The Beatles, but I saw a GOOD cover band in Florence, Italy)
-I have a lot of friends around the world, and I keep making more
- I had my own radio show with KCSU
-Volunteered at the library my mom works at
-Volunteered as help with a girl scout troop of younger girls
-Been to a lot of places I never thought I would actually get to go

When I look at this list, I don't anything that I haven't done that I wanted to...

By 22 I planned on being almost exactly where I am now.

I was hoping to live in another state and go to school, but out of state tuition and loans have kept me in Colorado, which is pretty okay. There are a lot of other things I have gained from being in good old Colorado. Like the small family I have with my boyfriend and his daughter. Or some great friends I have made, my job that I get to go to, the experiences I have had with music, and a long list of other things.

Oh I also had the idea that I could bull shit a book and get it published and not have to REALLY work at writing it. SURPRISE, it is a lot of work and not worth doing unless you put work into it. Good life lesson that.

There is nothing else I have not accomplished in my 22 years that I wish I had. I feel I have gone above and beyond that what I dreamed. Which is really cool.

Sometimes this world feels like it is meant to trip you up, that you're not good enough, talented enough, strong enough, or better than other people to get to where you are going. However, I recently had a teacher tell me what he thought about the rat race. Which is this: grades don't matter, school doesn't matter- learn and live to learn and live. Don't do it for a career, or worst- money. Do it for you. Don't worry about being better than anyone else, be better than you.

Be better than you.

I love that. I now see it's value. I don't have to have the same GPA as my other Journalism student friends, I don't have to make more money or go to a better school, or work for a better company or be a better writer. I just have to better than I was at some moment in my past. I just have to move forward for me, forward for my skills and my ideas, not what someone else wants. Not what society wants. I don't have to buy into the rat race, competitive mindset of my culture. I can break that.

"If you win the rat race, if you come in first place, than a rat is all you will be." ~DeVotchka

Who wants to be a rat? In the sense of someone being mean, stomping on toes and heads to get somewhere, throwing away love and relationships to be "better" than everyone around him.

The same teacher also told me that at the end of the day LOVE is the only thing that really matters, and I think he is right and to add to that he mentioned the importance of human connection and relationships.

I think I've also come to the conclusion that I would prefer to be happy and filled with a life of love than one filled with money, or a large amounts of control over something. I would prefer to be unknown than swallowed up in fame and prestige, in an image, in people gossipping or undermining me.

So all of you out there, if you are feeling like you haven't done a lot, make a list of everything you HAVE done and go over it. Make a list of things you HAVEN'T done that you wanted to by now and then start making them happen, or think what their importance is to you right now. Ask yourself, does it matter so much now that I know what I know? 

I'm ALIVE and confused...

So after getting the diagnosis of bronchitis and tonsillitis I've been laying low.

Having 1 infection while travelling would have been mean enough.

Having 2 is probably the most irritating thing I've ever experienced.

At least the German doctor I went to see was REALLY nice, even though there was a mix up wire th age and everyone thought I was 14 for a while, until I se them straight saying I was 22 and then my friend Fallon announced to me that she thinks I look only about 15/16 so I kind of fail on looking my age lately. Thanks Fallon.

Also my google chrome is all in Italian, which is annoying the hell out of me, so if I mis-spell a lot it's because I have lost my spell check. I am also not computer savvy enough to fix it.


Anyway,

Though I am ill, I am on an antibiotic to kill out those bacteria living in my lungs and throat! YAY!

And I had enough energy to go run errands with Carol and take care of her dog and eat out and go shopping for dirndls and lingerie.

I even went to Frankfurt this last weekend to meet some family (cousins). I met my dad's cousin Mark and his son David and Saturday afternoon we spent it doing a walking tour of the city. Which amongst wonderful new sky-scrapers were charming fragments of the old city which had been largely destroyed in WWII. I really want to go back to see the city at Christmas time.

On Sunday Mark met with me to take me to a smaller city outside of Frankfurt accesible by train, Rudesheim, a UNESCO world heritage site, and then we caught a boat and sailed the Rhein River for the afternoon. Minus a terrible sunburn on my shoulders and chest, it was a WONDERFUL experience. The river was dotted with castles and charming little villages with architecture and buildings dating back to the middle ages. We had some local wine next to a building dated 1368, and discussed how old it was, and that it was before greats like Da Vinci and Galileo. What WAS happening in the world that year? What did people believe in that town way back then? My answer would be that the church was integral to their daily lives, they would have been wealthy to have such a large home, and that their life would have been heavily influenced by the trade and fishing on the Rhein.

Once again I noted my love of being on the water. The smell, the feeling, the emotion. I often like to imagine I'm some great world traveler and explorer off to find new things to write about to tell people about. Then I realize I am surrounded by thirty other tourists and that these places have been known for a very long time. But I still like to pretend I am finding threads of something lost or unknown.

After the cruise it was a train back to Frankfurt, where I promptly passed out until reaching the city, then in was a three hour bus ride back to Stuttgart.

Monday was shopping in Stuttgart, and Tuesday we went to a traditional German Mineral Thermbad. Or Mineral bath house. Meaning one had a variety of natura hot spring  pools to enjoy or the other option of going to sit and refresh totally nude in one of several different saunas. I tried both the pools and saunas and found it a relaxing and refreshing experiences and wonderful for my being sick.

Today it's more errands, and such.

Tomorrow I am doing photography of Fallon and McKenna in their dirndls in a medieval walled city, followed by dinner and drinks in the city with Fallon and her friend Alex.

Friday is going to see a baroque palace (time/weather permitting)

and Saturday it's off to Strasbourg, France for classic architecture and charm in a German influenced part of Alsace, and we should return Sunday.

Monday I fly to London, stay the night in a hostel there, and then Tuesday I will attempt to do some photography and then head back to Denver. Time is a ticking on this adventure.

Which makes me sad.

I have to go back to real life soon.

Which means I have Ryan, a real plus.

But also means I have work, and family, and a million other things like bills and cleaning that I have to do.

Not to mention school. Which I am having a really hard time wanting to return to.

Not that I don't want to keep learning, that I DESPERATELY want to do, it's that I don't know what I'm learning at CSU.

A month in Italy and I feel like I learned more there than I have in a year and a half of classes at CSU, and that is not to say I haven't had some AMAZING teachers at CSU. They're just not all amazing. Some have been soul crushing, intimidating, mean, lazy, our of touch, or just plain shouldn't teach. So it scares me. It scares me to be so in debt for something I am not enjoying half the time, and that I SHOULD be. Can't it be that things are taught to all learning styles? All kinds of people? That's what happened in Italy, why doesn't it at always happen at COLORADO STATE?

I don't want to rip on the school but I feel dissapointed half the time. One semester I'll have an inspiring visual communication teacher that sparks an interest in web development, or a history teacher that gets me excited again about 18th century clothing and design. Yet, on the other hand I'll have the history teacher that only wants dates and names, or an English professor that tells everyone how horribly untalented they are.

I shouldn't be depressed about more than half the education I am recieving.

But I don't know what to do.

I am LITERALLY a semester and a half from a history degree, and I will have both History and a Journalism degree in two years.

Do I transfer now to the online world and learn from a webcam and writings?

Or move to UNC and stress about how to commute to Greeley all the time when I co-own one car with my boyfriend, who needs the car to go to work to pay his bills and to take his daughter to a better school in Loveland.

I don't know what to do, other than HOPE for a better set of classes and teachers the next four semesters (6 if we count summer) and wishfully think I'll get excited about walking around the clark building all day for two years. There are WONDERFUL teachers at CSU, can I please just have them the next two years? PLEASE!?!?

At the end of the day I just want to learn, REALLY learn, REALLY get excited about the world, REALLY want to feel like changing it for the better, REALLY want to be passionate....that's all I want...but why do I have to go 5,000 miles away to find it?

Enough of a rant...time to explore some more of Germany.

~Rebecca Lee Robinson

P.S. have some ideas for me? please feel free to comment.

Friday, July 12, 2013

Florence to Venice

My last few days in Italy were a mixed bag of emotions.

I was sick when I left Florence Saturday morning, but excited for seeing my old friends in Padua and our journey onto Venice.

Now that I am away from Florence I miss things, like my favorite gelato stand, or my daily walk by the Duomo to school.  I will hold that city in a special place in my heart, much like Edinburgh. It is full of memories, dreams, and love. I hope to return to both one day, with my loved ones, and show them what inspires me.

The funny thing is I want to consider myself an "expert" on travel in a few places now. As if I KNOW the little ins and outs to things, like I could drag around 5 other people and show them Italy or at least Tuscany with little to no problems. Could being a tour guide be another viable option for a career? Something I could do. Private tours of Tuscany, or East Lothian or anywhere else. I could take people, show them around, tell them the history of a place, assist with food options and allergies, hotels, days trips. I think I would love this. I enjoyed helping my friends leave the city for a day trip on the train or bus, and three year ago I helped a friend find a ferry to England when the ash cloud was messing with everyone. I love sharing things with people, even full strangers. I was also inspired by Richard, my program director and how giving he was to us all as we travelled Italy. Maybe I COULD do this....the possibilities. Let me know what you think readers and friends, would I be a good guide around the world? w

I think I want to try on too many hats in my life for careers, can't I just decide and stick with one?

Anyway, I spent my last day in Florence at Santa Croce and before that I got pizza at my favorite place to get pizza and before that I went to the Da Vinci museum and saw all the replica machines. The Da Vinci Museum had me inspired by the man, then following it up with seeing Galileo and Michelangelo tombs at Santa Croce made it hard to want to say good bye to a city that gave birth to so many greats.

But....all good things must come to an end.

I had a wonderful three course meal with my program director and roommates....

Went to bed early.

Then on the morning of June 6th, I took out the trash, put away the dishes, got my luggage and said goodbye on the 10:15 train to Padua.

In Padua my friends, Fallon, McKenna and Carol retrieved me from the train station and took me to a famous and important Cappella Degli Scrovegni which is covered in the inspiring and pivotal masterpieces of Giotto. All things I knew nothing about until I got there, and I was happy to go, it was all very inspiring and though I was "sick" of looking at Jesus paintings, this was a new and welcome form, story and style that I had not expected. I was very happy we went.

Then it was the drive to the docks to take a ferry to Venice Lido. Where we dropped off the bags, the car, and had horrible service at a cafe along the main drag.

Up by 8 the next morning and properly moving by 11 Fallon and I took off to the city to see the Bienalle art show, which was well worth it for the pure fact that I got to talk to trees.

You are thinking....Rebecca's fever must really be up there, but NO I got to talk to trees!

The Bienalle is an international art exhibition and the pavillion of Finland and two other countries had a hand in the making of something I consider next to a miracle. Through science they Bia way to record the sound of photosynthesis. Not only that, but the sound that my voice and my carbon dioxide and the effect that it had on the trees. Therefore the sound that the trees made, was in reaction to me, and only me, and in ways it was as if the trees were talking to me in a dinstinct code. It was just amazing. Never have I had such a feeling of amazement and joy at anything, and never in my life did I think I could talk to a tree, let alone three of them! So, if you are going to Venice and you like art, check this out, the talking trees made the ticket worthwhile but everything else was icing on the cake, like having Russian coins rained on me.

After the Biennale we did the typical Venice thing and had a gondola ride for 40 minutes. At €20/person or €80 for the whole boat for 40 minutes it was a little steep, but everyone needs to a gondola ride at least once in Venice. We also had the luxury of having an older gentleman as our gondolier making the experience one filled with stories and pleasant talk, even a little singing. He was the typical Italian man I just adore conversing with, warm, funny, friendly, and with a love for life and making new friends.

Post-gondalo we walked around St. Mark's Square, rehydrated, and then did some shopping where Fallon tracked down an ITALIA hoodie and then we all enjoyed a late evening Sunday dinner of seafood. I had clams and Gluten Free spaghetti.

Then we took the boat back to Lido.

Monday morning we decided against the city and crowds and instead headed for a local island called Burano. Famous for its lace and ostentacious coloered houses. It was beautiful, and very fun to photograph, stroll through and go shopping.

Then we took McKenna back to Lido so she could go to the beach....but I got a nose bleed while everyone was getting ready and send Fallon and McKenna out on their own while I recovered. It was then that I realized how bad my cold was and that mybody was screaming for me to SLOW down.

The next day was the drive to Bavaria, where I felt worse and worse as the hours ticked by and I should have been ecstatic at seeing the alps, and ten to fifteen magnificent castles. But it all feels like a feverish fog.

Which carried on in Garmisch at our wonderful alpine hotel and traditional dinner with dancing, yodeling, and music.

And has found me here on Friday, where I have spent the last two days in bed, mostly sleeping.

Tonight I feel well enough to go get dinner somewhere....

and maybe tomorrow to go see a medieval town. I hope.

Nyquil and Dayquil are my best friends right now.

Where Has Rebecca Gone?

Well sick, to put it simply, I have fallen into a black hole of a seriously nasty cold.

It hit some time after the Chianti tour and got worse as I stayed in Venice. Leaving my brain foggy, my reasoning senseless, and my heart and soul homesick. I have those cravings for the little things when I get ill, like curling up with my boyfriend, and having tea on my couch while whining how I hate being sick. While traveling I'm horrible about being sick. I don't want to stay in bed, I don't want to take it easy, I want to explore. I want to ignore my spinning head and coughing so I can go and see some art and people, take a gondola ride.

Yet, my body had other ideas. Like giving me a nose bleed for half an hour and finally out of exhaustion forcing me to sleep for 20 hours yesterday.

The good news is that I am in Germany, with friends, and I have the ability to sleep, to rest, to clear out my lungs. Except, I am terrible about wanting to stay in bed and rest, when there is a church ringing bells just down the way, and apparently a medieval walled city a few kilometers away.

Oh well.

So forgive me readers as I try to catch up on my story telling.

Details

I am trying to remember details.

Like the smell of Fiesole with its tress, clean air and wildlife. Or the feel of walking through its cemetery on Saturday, and feeling haunted by it being so different than cemeteries I had ever been to. Being moved by the ancient Etruscan amphitheatre and the fact that those people settled this area 2500 years ago. 

I think of the emotion I feel when I walk such ancient tracks of lands, streets and their trillions of people's feet that have touched them. I am amazed that cultures thrived on steep hills and rocky lands so long ago, without trains, cars, bikes but instead animal and human power. I think about what these people ate, and wore, how they loved, married, slept, breathed, talked, hugged, kissed, cried. I think they were so much like me that if I fell into their world we could get along just fine. I think that there is plenty to show us that people are mostly good.

I reflect on the taste of wines I tried yesterday in tuscany, and how unique they all were, the flavor, the way they melted down the throat, the smell and our host how he spoke, and presented himself. How he, being a retired veterinarian, teared up when he mentioned losing his truffle hunting dog a few days previous to cancer. How I then teared up thinking about losing dogs through my life and how it always makes you cry.

I remember how things connect in my mind, a smell, a feel of the air, a word, a way the sun glows. Yesterday we stood in a medieval town, much unchanged over the centuries, Monteriggioni. From somewhere a smell of campfire mixed delicately with the humid tuscan sky, the late afternoon sun made the stone glow with the rolling hills. Reminding me of summers camping, reenacting, in Wyoming on the family ranch. Those sun-baked sand stone castles of rural Wyoming and how for some reason they hit me in Tuscany with a fondness, a memory, a longing for something. 

The little things hit home, how a hill or road is angled to remind you of a drive you took in the Black Hills. 

Maybe someone's face will look slightly like a lost friend, or a relative.

Half a planet away and things will send you back home.